It has been awhile since I last logged anything, I shall try to do so more often.

I had an appointment setup and the people forgot about it, I arrived at their house just before they were leaving and the wife and I talked some what.  She apologized and said she had it written down and everything and had just forgotten and asked if I would be available the next day, so I bumped a different appointment back a half hour to fit them in.  Then later that night her husband called me and cancelled the appointment saying that he was sorry but that he wasn't interested and that he was sorry his wife had wasted my time.  I simply said I wasn't sure if it had been relayed to him but there was no pressure to buy anything and that it would help me out a lot if they simply would allow me to do a demo, he said no, sorry again but he "knew the game because he use to sell cutco years ago" which there might be a little game, but I honestly am not too concerned if people do not buy cutco because it is the best cutlery there is and they are missing out.  I do not pressure people and I actually do get paid for just doing the demo.  I  told him it would help me with a scholarship etc and he just said he appreciated me calling but his wife was mistaken when she made the appointment.  The only thing that really annoys me I guess is that he knows what's up and that it is easy to do and that we don't push a sale.  He wasn't rude with me in tone or anything like that but for some reason it still really annoys me.

But tomorrow is a different day and I will push things out and get more people, there can't be highs without lows.  Remember that.  And I need more people's names.

If anyone lives in Michigan and would be willing to help me email me and let me do a little demo, they are cool and you don't have to buy anything to help me.

This weekend was sort of interesting.  I had a couple demo's this weekend.  Like 5 or 6, but one of the people called my sister-in-law and told her I was rude etc. But still she gave me 7 people to call and set up demo's with.  I am not sure how I was rude to her, I honestly have no clue.

The next week is going to be quite busy and I am looking forward to it though.  I am going to try to get some sleep soon, need to organize things a bit first though.

I have had a little cold lately, and then last night I couldn't sleep.  But I finally got a few hours, woke up and went to a morning meeting.  It was really good, I learned some stuff.  But afterwards, I had an appointment and on my way my car started acting all messed up.  I put the gas pedal down and the car sputters and the acceleration goes up and down, up and down.  I just got my car fixed last weekend and now this already.  I am quite annoyed.

Also being a sales rep and driving to people's houses and having a fucked up car is really annoyed.  Makes my job somewhat hard if you get my drift, but I am annoyed.

The demo I had today went okay, I already knew that John had a lot of Cutco and I wouldn't sell anything but he is a social butterfly and has offered to ask the people he knows.  He is a teacher in the Farmington Hills, MI area.  During the summer he is in a tennis league as well as a busy body.  He also offered to bring a catalog and bring it to women's doubles next monday for me.  If anyone wants to buy anything he will convince them to call me for a demo.  Which is nice of him, and hopefully helps.

But I am pretty annoyed with the car situation still so I am signing off.

I haven't been the most diligent at keeping this journal, but at least I am writing somewhat in it I guess.  Just woke up and it is about 2 am.  I slept somewhat today and am sick and want to sleep!  But I do have to say my throat feels much better but my sinus' are still clogged somewhat.

Later today I am going to go over my demo in the mirror and try to work on making more facial gestures.  You can tell I was brought up in an anglo-saxon setting with how strict my hand and facial expressions are - just a little psych there I guess.  But I need to make more of an effort with selling this since it is my job now.  I can do better and need to do better.  I also work with kick ass people and I am not use to being one of the top people, much more effort and the rewards will bring themselves.

I am thinking about driving 4-5 hours for a party just because there is a girl I am interested in who is throwing it.  I probably shouldn't but if Don or someone wants to go I think I probably will.  Jennae, probably not how you spell her name but I don't know the spelling to be honest, is an awesome girl.  Easy to talk to, not that I have too hard of a time talking to anyone, but the conversation seems to just flow and even when it isn't we are not uncomfortable with just being there.  She is very attractive as well.  The only thing I am hesitant about is Kaureen and her are co-workers and get along.  So after last weekend, which Kaureen hasn't wanted to talk about at all, I am not sure how to handle some situations with people who are in regular contact with Kaureen.  And I am a little skitish about getting into a relationship at the moment.  So things will probably just stay as they are maybe a little face time or something, but I honestly don't really want a relationship at this time in life.

But I am going to throw some fortune cookies up or go to bed, I have a few of them that I should put up sooner or later, maybe I will just do that this weekend though.

I got home a couple of hours ago.  This weekend was nice, I got to see all four of my nieces - they are great.  I have started going home every weekend and it is nice to see my family more often as well as old friends that I have not hung out with for a long time.  Catching up has been nice.

I forgot how active I use to be, I am also starting to get more active.  This weekend I played frisbee golf, played some rollerblade hockey, basketball, as well as just general running around.  Now I understand why I gained my weight that I have.  Hopefully by starting to do this all again I will start to lose some of it.

I also should get a raise this week, which is awesome.  I do need to make more appointments though.  I talked to a friend and I have an appointment with his father - who is a social butterfly so I need to make sure things go great with him and I should be able to start doing a lot more demo's in this area than most of them in my home town area.  I would like to be doing 20-25 demos a week.  But we shall see, I know if I put the effort into it, it can happen I think I am pretty good at what I do and people will see that as well.

I also got my car back this past weekend, which I love.  I hated riding my bicycle around everywhere, it was good excercise and I will continue to ride it more, but for that to be one of the few modes of transportation I had really wasn't a good situation.  And I am too full of pride to ask a lot of people for rides places.

Another good thing is that I had lost my cell phone, but I should be able to pick my new one up tomorrow.  I can't wait for that.

Talking to Steve today, we both decided we need to find a place to live, I have been packing my stuff up half expecting to move back home for a bit until I had a place to live.  And that would blow, but things are starting to work nicely and life is going good and all the pieces are coming together.

I am going to read a little and try to wake up early to go for a run.

-Night

I just got back from the Division Meeting, I met a couple of the big wigs in the company.  That was pretty cool, they were nice, relaxed, and down to earth.  I am tired as hell, I slept on the way back from the conference, luckily Rob was driving.  I like the people I am working with, and Cutco is definatly the best quality cutlery I have ever seen.  So I am only worried about getting the chance to show people how great these products are, they can sell themselves pretty much.

On another note, I haven't seen Kaureen so far to day.  This whole thing could be a little ackward.  But I am going to shower and get around, going to visity the family this weekend.

Last night I went out with Kaureen, an ex to a person I have known for years.  We ended up making out, and then sleeping in the same bed.  When I say sleeping I do mean sleep, I had like 2-3 hours left before I had to wake up to go home and change for a division meeting I have in 30 mins.

I am a little hungover and hate it, I remember why I don't drink much anymore.  And my mouth tasted horrid, I smoked a few cig's last night.  The morning taste after a bar night should be reason enough to quit, I shall have to remember that taste, eww.

Also, we decided to wait until this morning to see what we were going to do about Kaureen and I.  But I plan on moving in a year or so, and she knows it.  She is still working through Mike and her breakup.  So I am sort of a rebound guy that there has been some sexual tension between.  She is a cool ass girl and attractive, but I think there is just too much on the plate right now.  If I retold the whole story about Mike and her and what happend, I don't think people would think this is too messed up.

But I am taking off before I am late for work, hopefully I can sleep on the way to the meeting, which is about an hour and a half drive.